sigh. feelin quite emo today. dont know why. haha... was plannin to study tonite, but dont seem i wil b able to. m chatting with isaac n lee mei, then i feel like blogging. actually nothing had happened but i dont know how to explain the emptiness i m feelin within my heart. mayb its the growing desire within me to search for "jonathan"- the best fren "david" ever had in his whole life. i do have lots of good frens over here in india, but i dont think there is one that fits in2 the best fren category. mayb its coz of the lack of time n the massive amount of study that we barely have much time to interact with each other.
but now, at this moment, i jus feel like goin to a fren's room for some company. n i can think of none in which i can jus barge in, n dont care whether i m disturbin them or not. n though i m indeed chatting, its still jus msn n they are not really here with me. (wow, it seems that bloggin can really help to ease one's heart n mind. i begin to feel better already.) i wonder what wil wk actually think n feel if i would jus go to his room now n tell him i feel so bored i want some company. but i know he is studying n though i think he wont kick me out, i would not want to disturb him after all. sigh sigh. let's hope this feelin wil jus go n i can continue to study. but sometimes i do feel that this best-fren feelin is kinda one sided. i really really treat him s my best buddy ever over here. but...
aiya i think i should not remain emo- "emo-feeling, i now rebuke u in jesus' name! be gone!" ok lah i think i should go to study now. so what if i cant find any fren to go to? i can always go to jesus. i dont even have to walk or sit lift up. =)
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