I REALLY DISLIKE REBLOGGIN THE SAME THING.
i think i will jus summarize.
had 2 class tests-did quite badly
aimed to be hardworking from now on
baked my first chocolate cake last week n it was quite succcessful though today's oreo cheese cake was quite a failure. they esp wk finished it all though.
time passed very fast- its jus 1 month before heading back to msia. n my head is already full of plans on how to utilize my holiday to the fullest. but i guess most wont be a success. hope to go singapore, plan the kl trip but probs r accomodation n transport for them.
i guess thats about it. lazy already.. sigh...
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Guys In Distress-1
Though i have so many works to do- pbl, pharmac n micro test, micro, pharmac, patho journal etc etc i had wasted so much time the last few weeks. even yesterday, when i was supposed to finish my pharmac note, i ended up playing n chatting with the other guys instead. but i must admit that it was a very fun n meaningful session, at least for me, calvin n lc since the other 2 went back to sleep by 12. we ended up playing til 1 before proceeding to a chat til 4 sth. (which results in me waking up late for church this morning)
N Thru that chat, i realized that it seems that none of them actually know who i am. they regards me as a mysterious friend who shuts his heart close n whom they are not able to deduce or to unlock. O.o
especially calvin, who seems to take me so seriously at times n i think that prevents our friendship from growing. though he may b crazy at times, i feel that he is an emotional guy deep inside. he wants acceptance, especially from timothy, n despite his other personalities, he is quite an understandin guy. its jus that he has not the skill to comprehend other people. i regretted being so harsh to him at times, but to b honest, i dont mean any of that.
about lian choon, he is a good friend but to be honest, the main obstacles between us is Studies. though he may not had said it before, but i can see that he treats me as his rival, n sometimes he is quite erm.. jealous on how i can take things so carefree. of coz, i understand his feeling very well. n i have never said it to him, but i know his every thought. its as though i can jus read his mind n heart. haha.. n i know that he regards me as his close fren, but is sometimes sorry for feelin that way towards me, and he also wonders if i regards him as highly as he do to me.
erm.. chien xue is one of the hardest for me to discover among the rest. he seems very happy-out-going kind of person, n he hides his emotional very well but i think that sometimes he does feel emo, though its rather rare. n he wouldnt want others to know bout him, i think.
timothy? he is one of the person who has rather lost hope in frenship or relationship, n who now thinks that its pointless to open out to people- that jus exposes your weakness to others. thus, he is more secretive n would not prefer people to disturb him while he emo. but deep down, he wants someone he can relate to, n in whom he can trust completely n he thinks there is none- yet.
wun khang is one who thinks highly of himself, at things in which he thinks he is good at. lol.. n who likes people who listen to him. with an outgoing attitude, he searches for comfort n friendship, though he realizes that most are superficial n in whom there are few in whom he can trust, he choose to believe that he doesnt really care, but is willing to expose himself to others, so others might do the same.
oh well, actualy i feel like bloggin so many other stuffs, but my sdl is calling me. i shall continue on thursday..
N Thru that chat, i realized that it seems that none of them actually know who i am. they regards me as a mysterious friend who shuts his heart close n whom they are not able to deduce or to unlock. O.o
especially calvin, who seems to take me so seriously at times n i think that prevents our friendship from growing. though he may b crazy at times, i feel that he is an emotional guy deep inside. he wants acceptance, especially from timothy, n despite his other personalities, he is quite an understandin guy. its jus that he has not the skill to comprehend other people. i regretted being so harsh to him at times, but to b honest, i dont mean any of that.
about lian choon, he is a good friend but to be honest, the main obstacles between us is Studies. though he may not had said it before, but i can see that he treats me as his rival, n sometimes he is quite erm.. jealous on how i can take things so carefree. of coz, i understand his feeling very well. n i have never said it to him, but i know his every thought. its as though i can jus read his mind n heart. haha.. n i know that he regards me as his close fren, but is sometimes sorry for feelin that way towards me, and he also wonders if i regards him as highly as he do to me.
erm.. chien xue is one of the hardest for me to discover among the rest. he seems very happy-out-going kind of person, n he hides his emotional very well but i think that sometimes he does feel emo, though its rather rare. n he wouldnt want others to know bout him, i think.
timothy? he is one of the person who has rather lost hope in frenship or relationship, n who now thinks that its pointless to open out to people- that jus exposes your weakness to others. thus, he is more secretive n would not prefer people to disturb him while he emo. but deep down, he wants someone he can relate to, n in whom he can trust completely n he thinks there is none- yet.
wun khang is one who thinks highly of himself, at things in which he thinks he is good at. lol.. n who likes people who listen to him. with an outgoing attitude, he searches for comfort n friendship, though he realizes that most are superficial n in whom there are few in whom he can trust, he choose to believe that he doesnt really care, but is willing to expose himself to others, so others might do the same.
oh well, actualy i feel like bloggin so many other stuffs, but my sdl is calling me. i shall continue on thursday..
Monday, July 11, 2011
Mutualism, Commensalism, or worse, parasitism??
sigh. feelin quite emo today. dont know why. haha... was plannin to study tonite, but dont seem i wil b able to. m chatting with isaac n lee mei, then i feel like blogging. actually nothing had happened but i dont know how to explain the emptiness i m feelin within my heart. mayb its the growing desire within me to search for "jonathan"- the best fren "david" ever had in his whole life. i do have lots of good frens over here in india, but i dont think there is one that fits in2 the best fren category. mayb its coz of the lack of time n the massive amount of study that we barely have much time to interact with each other.
but now, at this moment, i jus feel like goin to a fren's room for some company. n i can think of none in which i can jus barge in, n dont care whether i m disturbin them or not. n though i m indeed chatting, its still jus msn n they are not really here with me. (wow, it seems that bloggin can really help to ease one's heart n mind. i begin to feel better already.) i wonder what wil wk actually think n feel if i would jus go to his room now n tell him i feel so bored i want some company. but i know he is studying n though i think he wont kick me out, i would not want to disturb him after all. sigh sigh. let's hope this feelin wil jus go n i can continue to study. but sometimes i do feel that this best-fren feelin is kinda one sided. i really really treat him s my best buddy ever over here. but...
aiya i think i should not remain emo- "emo-feeling, i now rebuke u in jesus' name! be gone!" ok lah i think i should go to study now. so what if i cant find any fren to go to? i can always go to jesus. i dont even have to walk or sit lift up. =)
but now, at this moment, i jus feel like goin to a fren's room for some company. n i can think of none in which i can jus barge in, n dont care whether i m disturbin them or not. n though i m indeed chatting, its still jus msn n they are not really here with me. (wow, it seems that bloggin can really help to ease one's heart n mind. i begin to feel better already.) i wonder what wil wk actually think n feel if i would jus go to his room now n tell him i feel so bored i want some company. but i know he is studying n though i think he wont kick me out, i would not want to disturb him after all. sigh sigh. let's hope this feelin wil jus go n i can continue to study. but sometimes i do feel that this best-fren feelin is kinda one sided. i really really treat him s my best buddy ever over here. but...
aiya i think i should not remain emo- "emo-feeling, i now rebuke u in jesus' name! be gone!" ok lah i think i should go to study now. so what if i cant find any fren to go to? i can always go to jesus. i dont even have to walk or sit lift up. =)
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Hui Sin's HAPPY birthday= my "deathbed"?? T.T
arrgh this is my second time reblogging the same thing. n i feel totally annoyed by blogger.com.
(to lee mei n choon mei: the sole 2 ppl who knows the existence of this blog, i would seriously appreciate if u skip this post, coz this post is rather personal, for me n for a fren, that i would not
hope for u both to read this. thankss~)
basically spent whole day doing nothing- 2 hrs of pointless msp in which i m seriously getting fed up n tired on doing it. only bout 30 over respondent n 160 more to go after the hours i had spent doing it. then played some keyboard, lunch b4 spendin my whole evening in pratham, n finaly back to my room 2 sleep.
6.30 was scheduled 2 b the party, but s i need 2 wait for laundry, i went later. besides, i was to have my dinner first- my last 2 packets of indo mee b4 heading there, s the food is definitely insufficient. n i had spent alot of money- card, present, party etc. sigh.. n i m to go mangalore 2moro 4 transformer. i need 2 eat potatoes in d next few weeks alraedy...
the party turned out to b quite successful. miracle did happened n God answered my prayer. no one basically touched on the taboo topic. i had, yesterday nite spent 3 hours msg everyone to request them to avoid sayin things that will make wk n hs awkward- ask both of them take pic together or ask him to help her etc etc. this is supposedly the reason for wk not to go to d party, or to go late. he wouldnt want the gossip to worsen or to make her feel worse. n of coz, s his fren, all i can do is ask every1 else to quiet down on d topic, besides "forcing" him to go.
but now, i wonder if i did not do so, will he still go after all? he said he was supposed to skype n etc etc, but i know he wil be seriously depressed if he didnt go, after all. thus, my constant naggin on him to go. but i had also done the same thing for him 2 come for transformer, n in the end, he still refused to go. oh well, after all, who m i to compare to her? lol.. i m jus a fren after all, while she is his dreamgirl. besides i know that he had spent alot of time n money these few days n he would want to study. of coz i understand all this, which is why i didnt blame him after all, for not going.
but.. i must admit i do feel quite bitter that he is not accompanying the rest of us to go. after all, i would hope that d 6 of us would go together s a group 2 have fun. oh well..
anyway, droppin that depressing topic aside, there is another problem. while discussin on the taboo topic with yx, she began to call me dolly s she always enjoy to, n sth came to my mind, though i wonder if i should resort to that. in the end, i told her n calvin that if in the birthday, nothing happened, n no awkwardness between the 2, a happy ending, then they are at liberty to post my dolly pictures n video to fb n they can start calling me dolly instead of david.
yx asked then, if that means that i would hope that someone would touch on the topic- i replied otherwise- i m in a state that i would seriously not want my best friend to b depressed that i m willin enough to dispose those "atrocious" pictures of mine to the public. oh well, after all, i must admit that right now, he is considered top 1 in my best friend list (i dont know since when, though) that i m willin to sacrifice for him. n s i know that hs is his top dreamgirl, i would do all means possible to help him to court her. this does not mean that i think both of them are very compatible though. lol...
anyway, now i dread on seein those "atrocious" pics online, since i made the promise, n yx seem eager enough to ask calvin to post them to fb. i would jus at least ask them not to tag me. it wouldnt matter for the rest of b26 to view them already, actually. sigh... anyway, s long s everyone is happy, i should not mind being the only one depressed, rite? lol...
(to lee mei n choon mei: the sole 2 ppl who knows the existence of this blog, i would seriously appreciate if u skip this post, coz this post is rather personal, for me n for a fren, that i would not
hope for u both to read this. thankss~)
basically spent whole day doing nothing- 2 hrs of pointless msp in which i m seriously getting fed up n tired on doing it. only bout 30 over respondent n 160 more to go after the hours i had spent doing it. then played some keyboard, lunch b4 spendin my whole evening in pratham, n finaly back to my room 2 sleep.
6.30 was scheduled 2 b the party, but s i need 2 wait for laundry, i went later. besides, i was to have my dinner first- my last 2 packets of indo mee b4 heading there, s the food is definitely insufficient. n i had spent alot of money- card, present, party etc. sigh.. n i m to go mangalore 2moro 4 transformer. i need 2 eat potatoes in d next few weeks alraedy...
the party turned out to b quite successful. miracle did happened n God answered my prayer. no one basically touched on the taboo topic. i had, yesterday nite spent 3 hours msg everyone to request them to avoid sayin things that will make wk n hs awkward- ask both of them take pic together or ask him to help her etc etc. this is supposedly the reason for wk not to go to d party, or to go late. he wouldnt want the gossip to worsen or to make her feel worse. n of coz, s his fren, all i can do is ask every1 else to quiet down on d topic, besides "forcing" him to go.
but now, i wonder if i did not do so, will he still go after all? he said he was supposed to skype n etc etc, but i know he wil be seriously depressed if he didnt go, after all. thus, my constant naggin on him to go. but i had also done the same thing for him 2 come for transformer, n in the end, he still refused to go. oh well, after all, who m i to compare to her? lol.. i m jus a fren after all, while she is his dreamgirl. besides i know that he had spent alot of time n money these few days n he would want to study. of coz i understand all this, which is why i didnt blame him after all, for not going.
but.. i must admit i do feel quite bitter that he is not accompanying the rest of us to go. after all, i would hope that d 6 of us would go together s a group 2 have fun. oh well..
anyway, droppin that depressing topic aside, there is another problem. while discussin on the taboo topic with yx, she began to call me dolly s she always enjoy to, n sth came to my mind, though i wonder if i should resort to that. in the end, i told her n calvin that if in the birthday, nothing happened, n no awkwardness between the 2, a happy ending, then they are at liberty to post my dolly pictures n video to fb n they can start calling me dolly instead of david.
yx asked then, if that means that i would hope that someone would touch on the topic- i replied otherwise- i m in a state that i would seriously not want my best friend to b depressed that i m willin enough to dispose those "atrocious" pictures of mine to the public. oh well, after all, i must admit that right now, he is considered top 1 in my best friend list (i dont know since when, though) that i m willin to sacrifice for him. n s i know that hs is his top dreamgirl, i would do all means possible to help him to court her. this does not mean that i think both of them are very compatible though. lol...
anyway, now i dread on seein those "atrocious" pics online, since i made the promise, n yx seem eager enough to ask calvin to post them to fb. i would jus at least ask them not to tag me. it wouldnt matter for the rest of b26 to view them already, actually. sigh... anyway, s long s everyone is happy, i should not mind being the only one depressed, rite? lol...
Thursday, July 7, 2011
A Birthday Like Never Before
WARNING: THIS IS A VERYYY LONG POST. (wanted 2 put some pics 2 make it more interesting, but it wil take a long time, so.. i guess not. haha..)
alot of things had happened in these few days.. let's start from sunday nite: i had a discussion wit wk 4 d 1st time, n 4 once, v were talkin bout studies, rather than chit-chatting. haha.. lasted til 2.30am. gosh, i dont rmb studying til so late ever for a class test. but it turned out 2 b quite a success. i had jus 5 wrongs, n even he scored a distinction. hopefully he wil get better. i also hope to improve his english, but it feels weirrrdd speakin eng to him! since i came here, there r alot of frens whom i speak chinese to, n i cant seem to speak english 2 them already. lol.. (lee mei, i know u r like: WHATT?? if u r reading this. cant believe rite? my chinese improved alot, wit the expense of my eng. speak chinese more than english nowadays. haha..
once i got back home, i saw a note for a parcel, went 2 take it, n one look at the writing, the prettiest, cutest, charming-est girl came into my mind. haha.. "the sg girl". n within it r a card n a love letter, n a decoration item. been so long since i read a letter n such long msg in a card. lol.. the contents brought alot of sweet memories to me. n some which i dont even rmb anymore. but i appreciate it alot. =)
then monday nite, basicaly was jus studyin 4 pbl, n tue's pbl turned out quite well, though it was long n tedious. soon after that, went to udupi to shop for clothes. bought 2 at big bazaar 4 rs898. i was actually very reluctant 2 buy, but oh well.. i need clothes after all. the sad thing is, there is no more promotion. i should have bought more last year at that MEGA SALE.
went back, n had dinner with jas, gil n cx at china valley. they tried their best to surprise me, but i guess its too obvious. haha.. when jas went to take the cake, n gil asked the waiter to play the birthday song, i was already smiling out loud. n cx said: she is jus going to the toilet. haha..
then, even the other customers sang along for me. n i had my first birthday wish. which is for my parents. the china valley manager then gave me a birthday mug, but inside seems dirty n it cant seem 2 b cleaned, so i guess it will be just for decoration i guess. next, went to piccolo 4 ice cream b4 heading back home.
once home, initialy i thought that they would disturb me at 12am, but i was so wrong. lol. well, i went 2 sleep by 11.30pm, n b4 that sticked a note outside my door staticng: "do not disturb" but took it off in the end, coz if they did come, it would b bad of me 2 shoo them away. anywayy, i woke up at 6.30am the next day, w/o a single disturbance. 2 b honest, i was a lil disappointed. but later i found out that mayb, it wil b boring 2 use the same tactic again n again. lol..
in d mornin, suddenly had d urge 2 go the hillpoint, thus prayed that it wouldnt rain, n i went there, listening to God's songs n enjoying His presence. it drizzled in d end though, but it feels good getting drenched by the rain on my bday. hehe.. went back home 2 bath b4 going 2 class. i was thinkin whether 2 wear my new clothes, but i think i better not draw so much attention to myself. lol..
khang they all didnt wish me at all, (some others msg me in fb or phone). i guess they r keepin silent till later. then i had lunch with zee, joshua, jasbir n cx at dollops. n the funniest thing happened. oh ya b4 that, i had my second cake from kar yong during the break time. not really a cake, but a erm.. not sure of what its called, jus a type of confectionery. anyway, after lunch, zee asked: "david, can u come 2 class by 1.30pm? i got things 2 ask u"
me: what things?
zee: micro
me: i havent even read anything. there is no point for me to go. (smiling already)
zee: i want to ask u bout block 1 immunity, there's sth that i m not sure.
me: cx is going 2 class, u can ask him (smiling widely already)
zee: i dont like him! i want u! make sure u come ok?
me: lol.. ok ok. (hahaha)
zee: dont worry i din plan anything!!
at first i planned not to go at all, but since they already planned everything, it wil b too bad not 2 go. then i went there, n i saw everyone, pretendin to do their stuffs, not bothering me at all. n shalini came 2 initiate convo wit me, askin me whether 1 2 go genting or not etc etc. n she was directin me away from the rest of them. lol.. i pretended 2, s not 2 know. bla bla, the light was then off, n they then sang the song n lc brought a 2kg cake: Happy birthday, dolly David- 21st
n many ppl were there, though i myself m not sure who were there. i was smilin continuously.
i made my 2nd wish then- bout me n my friends.
we began 2 cut the cake, n lc they all distributed the cake 2 almost whoever who were there. i myself didnt do it coz i wil feel so pai seh! haha.. then that kar yong went n smear the cake on my face b4 the others did the same!! >< dirtied mine n aki's places. lol.. next, lectures started again.. n dragged til 4.30pm. by maam hima. sigh. i was hopin class will end earlier.
invited gil n wk 2 go end point, n at 1st i thot of buyin ice kacang there n sit at the hill, while eatin n chatting there. it wil feel so nice. but wk cant come, n only me n gil. in d end i bought bubble tea, b4 it started 2 drizzle!! i prayed n in a while it became sunny again! thank God! went 2 end point, (my 1st time since i entered year 2) n chat with gil til around 6.30 b4 heading back. been so long since v last went there to chat. talked bout our 1st year, jasbir, etc etc. it wil b nice if we can do so on n off, mayb wit wk together.
went back home 2 change n the dinners at planet cafe. that wk told me its jus a small gather n a normal dinner. i then played wit him by sayin that i wan fc instead, n i actualy hve other dates n cant come. haha.. turned out its rather a big gathering. though, 2 b honest, i felt quite awkward. mayb its coz i dont know how to respond to such a situation. sigh.. yee fu was askin me why i looked so sad. lol.. anyway, once i reached there, they brought out the third cake, made by pastor. n i had my third wish- bout our studies.
ate a burger-cordon blue, not nice at all. wanted 2 order sth else, but i know that i wouldnt have a chance to pay, so i didnt order anything expensive or any drink. wouldnt want them to spend anymore money. then they brought out the presents (refer 2 fb 4 more info- 2 much for me to mention here, this post is getting too long. lol) anyway i was quite touched by their efforts. n i love the card especialy. i actually knew wk was doing sth, but little did i gues it wil b like this. haha.. -the last supper-. (smile) then cf also baked a cake 4 me. (no wish, though)
but at that time, i had a mixed feeling. i seem 2 b quite confused bout what i was feeling. i should b feelin happy, but i dont think i m feelin happy at that time. i know if i ever mention that to them, they would b utterly disappointed, so i kept quiet bout it. went back after that, n was told to wait outside hostel. then asked me 2 turn around n walked backwards, n turned, n there was kar yong with his baked cakes. made my 4th wish- friendship forever- (actually i may have mixed up all the wishes. cant really rmb them accurately. lol) he baked 2 differnt kinds n 2 say the truth, i was very full (esp with cakes). smiled n ate them though, with some leftovers which i brought back to my room.
all of them came 2 my room 2 opened the presents. 1st time so many came 2 my room at the same time. i guessed correctly- a book, a formal shirt, but cant guess yf's- a cross n a box, which she msg me later that she is sorry that she bought me a catholic cross. i told her its ok, i dont mind. once they r gone, i m all alone, n its around 10pm. actually i thought of "on"ing that nite but everyone is so tired n i guess they 1 2 study or rest 4 d day. i really felt like spendin my last 2 hrs with them though. in d end, chat with isaac til around 11 b4 headin 2 bath (n its cold water! it wouldnt heat up!) n.. then.. went calvin's room 2 look at the pics b4 coming back at 12 to sleep...
i guess thats bout it for my birthday. i already summarised alot, n it would b much longer if i would have written every single thing. lol.. i think i will, in a book. to commemorate my 21st birthday. =)
(ps: lee mei, lol.. i salute u if u read thru the whole thing at one shot. hahaha..)
n oh ya, on d next day, i realized why i was feelin kind of upset. actually none of my family called me to wish me- only grace msg me. i never thought i wil feel upset bout this, though. but yang then msn-ed with me n said he tried calling but to no avail. then sis also called me n apologized. lol.. i havent call mother though. should do that tomorrow.. i guess thats all. i had a great birthday, after all. one of the best, if not the best ever. thanks to my friends n family.
alot of things had happened in these few days.. let's start from sunday nite: i had a discussion wit wk 4 d 1st time, n 4 once, v were talkin bout studies, rather than chit-chatting. haha.. lasted til 2.30am. gosh, i dont rmb studying til so late ever for a class test. but it turned out 2 b quite a success. i had jus 5 wrongs, n even he scored a distinction. hopefully he wil get better. i also hope to improve his english, but it feels weirrrdd speakin eng to him! since i came here, there r alot of frens whom i speak chinese to, n i cant seem to speak english 2 them already. lol.. (lee mei, i know u r like: WHATT?? if u r reading this. cant believe rite? my chinese improved alot, wit the expense of my eng. speak chinese more than english nowadays. haha..
once i got back home, i saw a note for a parcel, went 2 take it, n one look at the writing, the prettiest, cutest, charming-est girl came into my mind. haha.. "the sg girl". n within it r a card n a love letter, n a decoration item. been so long since i read a letter n such long msg in a card. lol.. the contents brought alot of sweet memories to me. n some which i dont even rmb anymore. but i appreciate it alot. =)
then monday nite, basicaly was jus studyin 4 pbl, n tue's pbl turned out quite well, though it was long n tedious. soon after that, went to udupi to shop for clothes. bought 2 at big bazaar 4 rs898. i was actually very reluctant 2 buy, but oh well.. i need clothes after all. the sad thing is, there is no more promotion. i should have bought more last year at that MEGA SALE.
went back, n had dinner with jas, gil n cx at china valley. they tried their best to surprise me, but i guess its too obvious. haha.. when jas went to take the cake, n gil asked the waiter to play the birthday song, i was already smiling out loud. n cx said: she is jus going to the toilet. haha..
then, even the other customers sang along for me. n i had my first birthday wish. which is for my parents. the china valley manager then gave me a birthday mug, but inside seems dirty n it cant seem 2 b cleaned, so i guess it will be just for decoration i guess. next, went to piccolo 4 ice cream b4 heading back home.
once home, initialy i thought that they would disturb me at 12am, but i was so wrong. lol. well, i went 2 sleep by 11.30pm, n b4 that sticked a note outside my door staticng: "do not disturb" but took it off in the end, coz if they did come, it would b bad of me 2 shoo them away. anywayy, i woke up at 6.30am the next day, w/o a single disturbance. 2 b honest, i was a lil disappointed. but later i found out that mayb, it wil b boring 2 use the same tactic again n again. lol..
in d mornin, suddenly had d urge 2 go the hillpoint, thus prayed that it wouldnt rain, n i went there, listening to God's songs n enjoying His presence. it drizzled in d end though, but it feels good getting drenched by the rain on my bday. hehe.. went back home 2 bath b4 going 2 class. i was thinkin whether 2 wear my new clothes, but i think i better not draw so much attention to myself. lol..
khang they all didnt wish me at all, (some others msg me in fb or phone). i guess they r keepin silent till later. then i had lunch with zee, joshua, jasbir n cx at dollops. n the funniest thing happened. oh ya b4 that, i had my second cake from kar yong during the break time. not really a cake, but a erm.. not sure of what its called, jus a type of confectionery. anyway, after lunch, zee asked: "david, can u come 2 class by 1.30pm? i got things 2 ask u"
me: what things?
zee: micro
me: i havent even read anything. there is no point for me to go. (smiling already)
zee: i want to ask u bout block 1 immunity, there's sth that i m not sure.
me: cx is going 2 class, u can ask him (smiling widely already)
zee: i dont like him! i want u! make sure u come ok?
me: lol.. ok ok. (hahaha)
zee: dont worry i din plan anything!!
at first i planned not to go at all, but since they already planned everything, it wil b too bad not 2 go. then i went there, n i saw everyone, pretendin to do their stuffs, not bothering me at all. n shalini came 2 initiate convo wit me, askin me whether 1 2 go genting or not etc etc. n she was directin me away from the rest of them. lol.. i pretended 2, s not 2 know. bla bla, the light was then off, n they then sang the song n lc brought a 2kg cake: Happy birthday, dolly David- 21st
n many ppl were there, though i myself m not sure who were there. i was smilin continuously.
i made my 2nd wish then- bout me n my friends.
we began 2 cut the cake, n lc they all distributed the cake 2 almost whoever who were there. i myself didnt do it coz i wil feel so pai seh! haha.. then that kar yong went n smear the cake on my face b4 the others did the same!! >< dirtied mine n aki's places. lol.. next, lectures started again.. n dragged til 4.30pm. by maam hima. sigh. i was hopin class will end earlier.
invited gil n wk 2 go end point, n at 1st i thot of buyin ice kacang there n sit at the hill, while eatin n chatting there. it wil feel so nice. but wk cant come, n only me n gil. in d end i bought bubble tea, b4 it started 2 drizzle!! i prayed n in a while it became sunny again! thank God! went 2 end point, (my 1st time since i entered year 2) n chat with gil til around 6.30 b4 heading back. been so long since v last went there to chat. talked bout our 1st year, jasbir, etc etc. it wil b nice if we can do so on n off, mayb wit wk together.
went back home 2 change n the dinners at planet cafe. that wk told me its jus a small gather n a normal dinner. i then played wit him by sayin that i wan fc instead, n i actualy hve other dates n cant come. haha.. turned out its rather a big gathering. though, 2 b honest, i felt quite awkward. mayb its coz i dont know how to respond to such a situation. sigh.. yee fu was askin me why i looked so sad. lol.. anyway, once i reached there, they brought out the third cake, made by pastor. n i had my third wish- bout our studies.
ate a burger-cordon blue, not nice at all. wanted 2 order sth else, but i know that i wouldnt have a chance to pay, so i didnt order anything expensive or any drink. wouldnt want them to spend anymore money. then they brought out the presents (refer 2 fb 4 more info- 2 much for me to mention here, this post is getting too long. lol) anyway i was quite touched by their efforts. n i love the card especialy. i actually knew wk was doing sth, but little did i gues it wil b like this. haha.. -the last supper-. (smile) then cf also baked a cake 4 me. (no wish, though)
but at that time, i had a mixed feeling. i seem 2 b quite confused bout what i was feeling. i should b feelin happy, but i dont think i m feelin happy at that time. i know if i ever mention that to them, they would b utterly disappointed, so i kept quiet bout it. went back after that, n was told to wait outside hostel. then asked me 2 turn around n walked backwards, n turned, n there was kar yong with his baked cakes. made my 4th wish- friendship forever- (actually i may have mixed up all the wishes. cant really rmb them accurately. lol) he baked 2 differnt kinds n 2 say the truth, i was very full (esp with cakes). smiled n ate them though, with some leftovers which i brought back to my room.
all of them came 2 my room 2 opened the presents. 1st time so many came 2 my room at the same time. i guessed correctly- a book, a formal shirt, but cant guess yf's- a cross n a box, which she msg me later that she is sorry that she bought me a catholic cross. i told her its ok, i dont mind. once they r gone, i m all alone, n its around 10pm. actually i thought of "on"ing that nite but everyone is so tired n i guess they 1 2 study or rest 4 d day. i really felt like spendin my last 2 hrs with them though. in d end, chat with isaac til around 11 b4 headin 2 bath (n its cold water! it wouldnt heat up!) n.. then.. went calvin's room 2 look at the pics b4 coming back at 12 to sleep...
i guess thats bout it for my birthday. i already summarised alot, n it would b much longer if i would have written every single thing. lol.. i think i will, in a book. to commemorate my 21st birthday. =)
(ps: lee mei, lol.. i salute u if u read thru the whole thing at one shot. hahaha..)
n oh ya, on d next day, i realized why i was feelin kind of upset. actually none of my family called me to wish me- only grace msg me. i never thought i wil feel upset bout this, though. but yang then msn-ed with me n said he tried calling but to no avail. then sis also called me n apologized. lol.. i havent call mother though. should do that tomorrow.. i guess thats all. i had a great birthday, after all. one of the best, if not the best ever. thanks to my friends n family.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
A Reflection Of Myself.
So, fast, it's july already, n it's only 3 more days before that 'dreaded' day arrives. sigh.. i wonder what will happen on that day. anyway, yesterday, i received another card from USA from cheng. thankfully, it managed to arrive safely this year. last year, the card was lost in the ocean or sth. lol..
Today's message in church was "Positive Love Of God". to be honest, i could barely pay much attention to pastor. i m feeling so fatigue n tired (even s i type this now). post effect of stayin up late last nite to complete (halfway) my micro journal n also due 2 the 2 hours of badminton. but seems like i have build up my stamina. i dont feel cramps or pain like last time anymore. after a rest of 3 months w/o exercise, when i went last week for badminton, i suffered from cramps n pain in my muscles. lol.. i need 2 start exercising already.. ><
anyway, i had the most stressful badminton game yesterday. went with wk n we played against 2 locals who r very good. i myself had never played a game with rules b4 n it was sooo confusin. need 2 keep changin sides n i m not sure of how the score goes. jus played but did a lot of terrible n embarassing mistakes. sigh... i always play for fun without any rules n i think thats farrr more enjoyable than to play 2 compete or to win the other team. the stress was worse than any exam stress. i felt soo weak n incompetent.
then i came back, with the desire to improve my skill, not to compete but to ensure i will play better, even with my friends. coz even when i play for fun with ky n some others, i ended up pickin the shuttles most of the time. =(
oh well..
another thing that bothered me alot recently is my MSP. sigh.. i regretted choosin that topic n choosin doctors n townspeople s my subjects. gosh.. went 2 hospital for 1 hr plus only 2 find 2 doctors (n i havent even collect 1 paper). should have chosen mmmc students instead, where i can jus enter their lecture halls n distribute all the questionairre to them. but 1 problem with students is they r more prone to give dishonest or faulty results. eg the other day, aki gave out his questionaire to us, n "M" answered rubbish in his paper: 'sex: I want' n etc etc. goshhh.. ==
anyway, i will try to finish all my MSP by 4th week. oh ya, i wish to thank God here too, for my Block 1 result. though its really "nothing" compared to my year 1 result, i m thankful for i know that He has blessed me, s i hardly read much last block, but i still managed to get 4 D's. especially my practicals! i thought i did badly but God surprised me. =)
one lesson i learnt is i m gonna be MUCH more hardworkin this block, n no more mangas or hours of FB n online in a day. i already set a goal for my this block exams n i wil ensure i will achieve it, with God's grace. =)
Today's message in church was "Positive Love Of God". to be honest, i could barely pay much attention to pastor. i m feeling so fatigue n tired (even s i type this now). post effect of stayin up late last nite to complete (halfway) my micro journal n also due 2 the 2 hours of badminton. but seems like i have build up my stamina. i dont feel cramps or pain like last time anymore. after a rest of 3 months w/o exercise, when i went last week for badminton, i suffered from cramps n pain in my muscles. lol.. i need 2 start exercising already.. ><
anyway, i had the most stressful badminton game yesterday. went with wk n we played against 2 locals who r very good. i myself had never played a game with rules b4 n it was sooo confusin. need 2 keep changin sides n i m not sure of how the score goes. jus played but did a lot of terrible n embarassing mistakes. sigh... i always play for fun without any rules n i think thats farrr more enjoyable than to play 2 compete or to win the other team. the stress was worse than any exam stress. i felt soo weak n incompetent.
then i came back, with the desire to improve my skill, not to compete but to ensure i will play better, even with my friends. coz even when i play for fun with ky n some others, i ended up pickin the shuttles most of the time. =(
oh well..
another thing that bothered me alot recently is my MSP. sigh.. i regretted choosin that topic n choosin doctors n townspeople s my subjects. gosh.. went 2 hospital for 1 hr plus only 2 find 2 doctors (n i havent even collect 1 paper). should have chosen mmmc students instead, where i can jus enter their lecture halls n distribute all the questionairre to them. but 1 problem with students is they r more prone to give dishonest or faulty results. eg the other day, aki gave out his questionaire to us, n "M" answered rubbish in his paper: 'sex: I want' n etc etc. goshhh.. ==
anyway, i will try to finish all my MSP by 4th week. oh ya, i wish to thank God here too, for my Block 1 result. though its really "nothing" compared to my year 1 result, i m thankful for i know that He has blessed me, s i hardly read much last block, but i still managed to get 4 D's. especially my practicals! i thought i did badly but God surprised me. =)
one lesson i learnt is i m gonna be MUCH more hardworkin this block, n no more mangas or hours of FB n online in a day. i already set a goal for my this block exams n i wil ensure i will achieve it, with God's grace. =)
Monday, June 27, 2011
A Post of Heart and Love Across The Ocean
It's jus d second week n i begin to feel that the workload is increasing so much, i can hardly cope with it, esp with so many manga 2 read, n with the monsoon ducing sleep (been sleeping 10hrs a day). sigh, stil feel so lazy n dont feel like studying. yet, i need 2 b hardworking n ensure no more last minute work. sdl on wed, test next mon, n pbl on tue. havent even start any of it yet.
sighh... anyway, today i received a parcel from malaysia. within it r a card from jess n mother, n a notebook from sis n pei. b4 that, my day had been dull n bad- drenched in d rain 4 d whole day, with my sock wet all the time, n my umbrella was taken by some1 else. then went back 2 d room 2 notice a note requestin me to pick up a parcel from the office.
sighh... anyway, today i received a parcel from malaysia. within it r a card from jess n mother, n a notebook from sis n pei. b4 that, my day had been dull n bad- drenched in d rain 4 d whole day, with my sock wet all the time, n my umbrella was taken by some1 else. then went back 2 d room 2 notice a note requestin me to pick up a parcel from the office.
One look at the handwriting, n i knew that its from Grace Lee, confirmed by the Lorong Sungai Address. There is a note 2 ask me to guess the content, but one touch at it, i could easily figure out that its a book within it. but the post was so expensive-rm9.35. O.o
opened that parcel to reveal a card n a present. the card is from mother n jessica. as i read the content of the card, it really brought a huge smile on my face n melted my heart straight away, s i read what my beloved mother wrote to me. really really love it very much. =)
next, s i unwrapped the present, it is a quote book with a message from both my sisters. called them straight to thank them, only to find them surprised that it arrived within 1 week. they were told that it wil take 1 to 3 weeks, n they hoped that it wil arrive next week, but i think it doesnt matter. in fact, it may well be better this way. i really appreciate that very much.
on d other hand, i realized that lc n the others r already planning sth i guess for next week. at least, i know that they wil/ are having difficulty thinkin of a present. 2 say d truth, i quite hope that they would forget n not know bout my bday. after all, i already deleted my bday from fb last year, hopin that there wil b no celebration this year for me here.
it's coz i think i wil feel weird being celebrated by a bunch of frens n to receive a present from them. to b honest, i prefer giving present than to receive. after all, i dont like frens wasting money or time on me. of coz, i think this applies only to not-so-close fren, coz i told this feelin to a close fren last week, only to upset her very much. oh well, i think i can jus wait til next wed n see what happens then.
yesterday, khang also already proved that they knew bout it. we were discussing bout hs bday on 9th n he stressed that no matter what, 6th wil b more important. lol.. i know that he definitely dont mean that, i guess, but i acted dumb though, n asked in a puzzle tone bout whats the importance of that date. haha.. but i wil certainly prefer a quiet, cozy celebration jus between close frens, if not none.
actually now i quite dread that day from coming. i really hope that 5th wil jump straight to 7th, n i dont have to face that day. ><
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