Guys In Distress-1

Though i have so many works to do- pbl, pharmac n micro test, micro, pharmac, patho journal etc etc i had wasted so much time the last few weeks. even yesterday, when i was supposed to finish my pharmac note, i ended up playing n chatting with the other guys instead. but i must admit that it was a very fun n meaningful session, at least for me, calvin n lc since the other 2 went back to sleep by 12. we ended up playing til 1 before proceeding to a chat til 4 sth. (which results in me waking up late for church this morning)

N Thru that chat, i realized that it seems that none of them actually know who i am. they regards me as a mysterious friend who shuts his heart close n whom they are not able to deduce or to unlock. O.o

especially calvin, who seems to take me so seriously at times n i think that prevents our friendship from growing. though he may b crazy at times, i feel that he is an emotional guy deep inside. he wants acceptance, especially from timothy, n despite his other personalities, he is quite an understandin guy. its jus that he has not the skill to comprehend other people. i regretted being so harsh to him at times, but to b honest, i dont mean any of that.

about lian choon, he is a good friend but to be honest, the main obstacles between us is Studies. though he may not had said it before, but i can see that he treats me as his rival, n sometimes he is quite erm.. jealous on how i can take things so carefree. of coz, i understand his feeling very well. n i have never said it to him, but i know his every thought. its as though i can jus read his mind n heart. haha.. n i know that he regards me as his close fren, but is sometimes sorry for feelin that way towards me, and he also wonders if i regards him as highly as he do to me.

erm.. chien xue is one of the hardest for me to discover among the rest. he seems very happy-out-going kind of person, n he hides his emotional very well but i think that sometimes he does feel emo, though its rather rare. n he wouldnt want others to know bout him, i think.

timothy? he is one of the person who has rather lost hope in frenship or relationship, n who now thinks that its pointless to open out to people- that jus exposes your weakness to others. thus, he is more secretive n would not prefer people to disturb him while he emo. but deep down, he wants someone he can relate to, n in whom he can trust completely n he thinks there is none- yet.

wun khang is one who thinks highly of himself, at things in which he thinks he is good at. lol.. n who likes people who listen to him. with an outgoing attitude, he searches for comfort n friendship, though he realizes that most are superficial n in whom there are few in whom he can trust, he choose to believe that he doesnt really care, but is willing to expose himself to others, so others might do the same.

oh well, actualy i feel like bloggin so many other stuffs, but my sdl is calling me. i shall continue on thursday..